Hello! I have been such a terribly bad blogger 😦 I’m sorry. Anyway, I’m back just in time for IWSG week! visit the iwsg page to tour the hop!
Since we collectively decide the first week of January is when we’ll be all motivated and self-reflective, I have some “resolutions” for the new year. Actually, just one major resolution, and it has to do with insecurity and writing and support.
I’ve spent a lot of time over the past few months just listening to (okay reading) and watching (reading without commenting) successful authors online. I feel like I am at a crossroads in my writing career, and it’s time for me to decide if I am going to move forward or just fade away. So I was trying to figure out what these other authors are doing to keep themselves “on top” and how, or if, I can hope to be like them.
First I thought: they are better than me. They write better, their plots are more compelling, their characters more interesting. But I read some bestsellers and…no. Not that they weren’t great! And sure, some are way better than me, but honestly most were just your average story. Many were flawed.
So then I thought: marketing! Of course, they are selling themselves better! They buy tons of ads and post in multiple groups and have huge mailing lists. And yeah, some do. But many are just as clueless as I am about that stuff.
Finally, I decided it must be personality. People are just drawn to certain characters, and maybe these authors have the kinds of personas that make people want to pay attention to them. Maybe…but a few of them are downright annoying, to be honest. At least in my opinion.
Then I figured it out: they all have confidence. They believe in themselves. Maybe not deep inside, maybe deep down they are insecure, too, I don’t know. But publicly, and in all the ways that matter when you are trying to sell yourself and your work, they put themselves out there with an “I’m worth it” attitude.
I realized you HAVE to do that! And (shocker) I haven’t been doing that AT ALL.
So that is my simple resolution. “I’m worth it.” I’m worth your time, your money, your attention. I’m worth my own time, my own support. I’m worth my own effort. Self-deprecation is a bad habit with no up-side. I need to stop putting myself down, and start advocating for myself and my work. Even if I don’t feel it inside, and even when I don’t have a book release and it’s going to be months until the next one and I could just save up all my faux-confidence for then when I’ll really need it. Even still, I’m going to resist the urge to downplay my accomplishments. Instead, I’ll be my own fangirl.
In the immortal words of Bob Bitchin: “The difference between an ordeal and an adventure is attitude.”
The last thing I need is another ordeal! I’m going on an adventure. 🙂