The monthly airing of insecurities is upon us 🙂Please visit the main IWSG page and check out some of the other writers’ blogs!
Man, I have so much to be insecure about this month. But I will keep it to the most writer-ly of my current worries: my work in progress. The good news is I have a story more than half-way done (yay!) and I feel confident I will have the first draft finished by my self-imposed deadline of May 15 (double yay!!) The bad news is – and here’s where my insecurity pops up – I am in WAY over my head with it!
First of all, it is a new kind of romance for me. A m/m/m polyamory. I’ve written menage erotica, but never without a vagina! So as you might imagine, there are some issues related to the triple-M throwdown. Pronoun confusion, explanations of body positioning, even dialogue is a bit trickier.
Also, I’ve made it a historical (or should it be “an” historical? I never know…) but anyway, the historical aspects, light as they are, add another level of difficulty for me.
And then, as if all that weren’t enough, it is nautical. Not exactly pirates, more like shady merchant sailors, but still, it’s a touch more complicated than a contemporary. At least for me. I have some familiarity with life on the water. I’ve lived by the water my whole life, and as a kid I spent several summers living on a boat (usually moored off the east coast anywhere between Block Island and Nantucket) but it sure as heck wasn’t a late 18th century wooden sailboat!
So I guess my insecurity is that I have bit off more than I can chew, here. That I will sound like an idiot to my readers. That I’m just not smart enough, or skilled enough as a writer, to pull this off properly. But I also think you cannot grow if you never challenge yourself, so I do want to try. Also, the story is coming along, so that has to mean something…right? I hope so 🙂
How about you? Have you ever written anything you didn’t think you could handle? How did you do? What about non-writing stuff – any inspiring “personal challenge” stories to share?