action despite insecurity

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Insecurity, low self-confidence, doubt: all these things can make action difficult. I know this firsthand. But lately I have been really trying to do what needs to be done despite my insecurity.

I think the worst phase for me in the entire writing-to-publishing process is that week or two right before a book releases. There is so much I need to do, and all of it requires me to act with a self-confidence I don’t feel. Requesting reviews from bloggers, promoting my book on various websites, posting to facebook groups… it all kills me. And it comes right on the heels, usually, of a slightly painful editing frenzy. Add to that the typical post-production doubts of “does my writing suck?” and “what was I thinking when I devised this ridiculous plot?” and basically at this stage I’m a mess.

And in the background, always, is my real life. My kids need attention, my house is dirty, the laundry is piling up, there is dog shit all over my lawn, I’m behind on paying bills, and everyone is always hungry.

But I’m doing it. Starting now, I am doing what needs to be done (My latest story comes out next week!!)

Teeth clenched, smile plastered on, delivery-pizza ordered – I am ignoring my insecurity and acting like a “real” author this week.

14 thoughts on “action despite insecurity

  1. Oh, man–that IS a hard time. I tend to not do it the justice it needs and my sales probably suffer for it. The promo right after, too is really hard. My first book I had friends all over the country take pictures of themselves with it, so THAT helped a ton, but since then, I’ve never had the same momentum. A lot of it is the day job and I’ve just been too busy, but I know I need to do it. Best of luck to you! (and thanks for doing IWSG this month!)

    • Having friends take pictures like that sounds like a great idea! That must have been cool.
      I think the worst thing about all this promo-stuff is I have a strong suspicion that none of it matters much. That a lot of ‘success’ depends on luck, or other factors that are not controllable. *sigh* but I will continue, so at least I can say I tried my best.
      Thanks for the comment! 🙂

  2. *Brings out the silly pom-poms* You can do it! Rah-rah… er-rah? Sorry, I’m a sucky cheerleader, but still sending out supportive vibes your way.

  3. I think that’s what is so wonderful about blogland. You can take a moment to share your insecurities, knowing that we all understand because we can relate. Then it’s back into the real world, where we shelter those insecurities under a protected facade of “I can do this.”

    • True! And it is nice to visit other blogs, and see that others are going through the exact same thing. Especially nice for someone (like me) who doesn’t share writing with anyone in real life.
      thanks for the visit and comment! 🙂

  4. Oh my gosh, I can totally relate to this. I did the final editing of my ms during my cover teaser and cover reveal weeks, then prepared the documents and sent them to the fomatter–this morning, on IWSG day. o_0

    Hey. At least my family will get a few good meals while the book is out of my hands. 😛

    Great post!
    IWSG #243, until Alex culls the list again.

    • Yes, my husband knows when a book is done because the house is suddenly clean and my dinners get 100% more elaborate. He comes home to cookies baking or a pile of clean laundry and asks “Hey hon, book published?” with a little light of hope in his eyes.
      But as you and I know, the domesticity never lasts… another story is always brewing!

  5. As I’m nowhere near publishing, I can only imagine how scary this must be for you! Now that you’ve worked so hard on this story though, the world deserves to see how wonderful it is. Have courage, writer! It will be worth it when the good reviews come in, (not to mention the $$$! 🙂 )

    • Thanks! I’m feeling better about it now. I sent a few emails to review blogs today, and got the createspace formatting done (huge step for me) so I think that deserves a bit of celebration 🙂 There’s always a bit of insecurity, but truly I am proud of this story. And thanks to IWSG I’ve had a lot of encouragement!

  6. Oh man, That does sound stressful! I think next time I have a book release I’ll be doing a lot more of that. Your blog writing, at least, seems to be pretty great! So boost that confidence a bit 🙂 You deserve it!
    Happy IWSG!

    • I sort of worked my way up to it, as well. My first few novellas, I did nothing to promote. But as I’m putting more and more time and money into my books, I feel like I need to put more energy into the promotion as well.
      We will see if it pays off 🙂 Happy IWSG to you too!

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