Insecurity, low self-confidence, doubt: all these things can make action difficult. I know this firsthand. But lately I have been really trying to do what needs to be done despite my insecurity.
I think the worst phase for me in the entire writing-to-publishing process is that week or two right before a book releases. There is so much I need to do, and all of it requires me to act with a self-confidence I don’t feel. Requesting reviews from bloggers, promoting my book on various websites, posting to facebook groups… it all kills me. And it comes right on the heels, usually, of a slightly painful editing frenzy. Add to that the typical post-production doubts of “does my writing suck?” and “what was I thinking when I devised this ridiculous plot?” and basically at this stage I’m a mess.
And in the background, always, is my real life. My kids need attention, my house is dirty, the laundry is piling up, there is dog shit all over my lawn, I’m behind on paying bills, and everyone is always hungry.
But I’m doing it. Starting now, I am doing what needs to be done (My latest story comes out next week!!)
Teeth clenched, smile plastered on, delivery-pizza ordered – I am ignoring my insecurity and acting like a “real” author this week.