I am. So, so, vanilla. And I don’t know why I thought a BDSM story was a good idea to write!?
I have written BDSM before, but that was more a fantasy story, not a contemporary, so I could get away with not being so realistic. This one is proving more nerve-wracking.
But it is done. Done, done, done! I finished yesterday, 20k with a sappy-sweet happy-ever-after, as I like it. But the BDSM… I am afraid it is too vanilla. Too tame. But I wanted it to be sexy, and to me actual physical damage is NOT sexy. Neither is a full on ‘power exchange’, or a master/slave relationship. So I wrote it the best way I could, and even though it is kind of out of my personal comfort zone, it’s sexy to me. I hope it’s okay.
Does everyone have these horrible doubts after finishing their stories? No? Just me?